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and it starts sometime around midnight.. at least that’s when you lose yourself for a minute or two.

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Posted 3 months ago Comments

I’ve joined the ranks, find me on twitter @brooklynsbones

Life’s pretty steady lately, schools kind of overwhelming. Who knew you could have so much homework for just one class! Still dating the same guy which is quite the accomplishment, kinda weird to find someone who I feel comfortable around… I don’t plan on ditching him anytime soon. In fact the only thing I can complain about is the lack of commitment which is just odd ‘cause.. usually I’m the one with commitment issues!

Speaking of the devil, my phone is lighting up gotta run!

Have a good night.

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Okay okay, so I never had a chance to finish this entry.. I guess I can do that now.

I wonder why I’m so hesitant sometimes? One moment I’m content, and the next I feel like I’m getting the short end of the stick. I’m happy being single, then I’m not. I never really know what I want, or what outcome I’m hoping for.

Life was so much simpler when I was 7. Now I close my eyes I see a merry-go-round out in a field somewhere… tall green grass and big blue skies.  I’m on it, hair blowing in the wind, eyes closed, and for once I just don’t care about anything, just going with the flow, going with the feeling I get. It’s hard to focus on anything but the future of things when people from the past are so determined to work their way back into your present. What is it about people that they can’t just accept the decisions they made? At the time I didn’t really understand but as time passed things became crystal clear. I find myself thankful that things turned out the way they did, and just really want people who belong in the past to stay there… but that another story entirely.

Life is funny, ironic even and what it comes down to is I really just wanna go out and enjoy myself -within reason. I’m pretty stoked on the amount of freedom I have, even when I’m older and married I intend to have freedom, I intend my spouse to have freedom. My parent’s current marital status makes me think about relationships often. I really think that if they had given each other more freedom they would of been happier, and appreciated the time they chose to spend together more instead of resenting one another. I think it’s common for people to become obligated to their partner.. I find that to be just.. sad. I’d feel awful if someone I was dating felt like they HAD to hang out with me a specified number of times in a week, or had to “check in” with me.. sure we all like to know what the other one is doing from time to time but wouldn’t it be awesome to know that they are hanging out with you, or talking to you because the want to not because they have to? I guess that brings clarity to my stance regarding my current relationship status, which luckily I think is pretty void of obligation. In fact, I guess I’m happy with being single because really who wants to be with someone who doesn’t want to be with them? I suppose everything else is just unnecessarily complications. If two people want to spend time together than they should and the rest doesn’t really matter, at all really.. but it does.

Imagine that.

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